04/04/17 choreographic conscience, France, Eve
20-22 March 2017
Context- Henrietta Hale invited Nikki Tomlinson, Lizzy Le Quesne, Kate Brown, Charlotte Darbyshire, Rachel Lopez, Mansoor Ali, Marina Collard, Michael Kitchin and myself to spend 4 days in France researching choreography and being generous with each other.
Something about desire as a way to talk about my experience
Spaces, rooms, beds, showers, tables, gardens, fields, vessels, people, bodies, brains, theories holding desire, encounters of desire, desire as ‘potential’, desire as hope, desire as tenderness, desire in a group, desire of a group, desire to be articulate, desire to be filled, awake, revealing, sex and desire, a reckless desire, unfulfilled desire, repressed desire, desire for mutuality, desire for touch, closeness, pain, feeling, desire as empathy, desire to be abject, contradicting desires, controversial desires, melodramatic desires, reflective and melancholic desires, desire to be consistent, pragmatic, bold, desire to fuck, lick, consume, energise, desire that is overlooked, side stepped, confused, unobtainable, misunderstood, needy, embarrassed, moody. Is desire lacking/ overrated/ basic/ undermining? Desire as a radical/ not radical form of connecting, mixing, playing, understanding, deepening, trusting, desire for/ as change, wine filling desires for closeness, desire for movement and being moved or shaken, for emotional indulgence, for writhing, writing, sharing and caring.
Something about being filled as a way to talk about my experience
Spaces, rooms, beds, showers, tables, gardens, fields, vessels, people, bodies, brains, theories growing full, a dripping and draining of soft concrete voices seeping into a space pool, solidifying from the peripheries to the nucleus, before locating the swollen fullness of a little fluid slippy thought. Bodies full of subtleties, of care, of presence, of shit, of fresh air, full capacity, maximum intensity, filly fully full full, filling pockets with non committal points and brie, beautiful non committal provocations rolling quietly into one another, begging for reassurance and petting, a full trust, full of age, clarity, boldness, dare, speculation, wit, full frontal. Raging fullness from kindness, support, safety and heavy listening. It’s nice to feel full, full of it/ not enough of it.